Last sunday we filmed my Ford Fiesta Mission video #4. It's social activism month and I have to admit, this month was the hardest one for me to come up with what the video would be! I wanted to make sure it was the right cause, something I was truly and honestly passionate about (after all, the cause would be getting a generous donation on behalf of Ford). Of course, this meant helping animals, hopefully dogs, and in a way that still had the Deena Marie stamp!
I was at a loss when I opened local weekly paper, "IN" Magazine and saw that this weeks scene maker was non other than Sondra Joy, founder of Pinups for Pups! I've been aware of this for awhile and was dying to connect with her, and here she was, relocated to SLC from LA! We met for lunch, made some plans and filmed a fabulous video! Pinups and pups? Two thinks I love! How insanely perfect!
I learned all about her successful cause and she introduced me to Friends of Animals and Furburbia, a dog shelter in Park City where we were able to go and see rescued pups and get great footage.
My baby, Noodles just had his second birthday on August 18th and if you know us, you know how he totally changed my life. I want every dog and animal to be loved just as much as he is.
You are 100% responsible for your pet, so treat them well. They are your family member. They can't tell you what they need, so do everything you can to make them loved and comfortable.
I loved doing this mission. My favorite part of the ford fiesta movement has been meeting people and going places I may not have otherwise!
I'm waiting to hear on approval for the video & will post a link as soon as I get it. I can't wait for everyone to learn more about Sondra & her cause.
And because I know people will ask if I'm going to be in an upcoming calendar...yes :) we'll shoot for it in the next few months. All in good time.
"The Land Before Time" came on the HBO Family channel and I watched it and was in love with it and pretty much cried through the whole thing. Then "The Land Before Time II" came on right after!!!! And then another and another! How many are there?!
Apparently (as I was just alerted on twitter by the fabulously funny @jimmyrabbitte) there are 13 AND two sing-a-longs!
We got them all on tivo when we had to leave to go watch roller derby last night and after a long day of shooting for Ford today, what better to come home to than these spunky baby dinos?! There's pretty much one of every dino in the group and boy does adventure find them!
I'm learning so much, like how to conserve water, the importance of community, to be nice to everyone and to run from the sharp teeth.
Why is Little Foot so wise? And where does his beautiful singing voice come from? How can I make Ducky real and have her as a pet? She is the most precious thing I've ever seen! She repeats everything twice! Yes she does, yes she does! I know she'd get along great with Noodles! Why do they stay babies and never grow up? Why is that Petrie so tiny?
The lyrics to the songs are just as awesome, too. "When you were an egg you were a cutie but now you're a real beauty!"
I think if HBO Family was the only channel I could have I would be okay with that. Yes. I said that.
If you haven't seen these I suggest you find them. Now. And let me know if you also laugh, cry and get up and jump around when the songs come on. I'm telling you, it's edge of your seat, action - packed Suspense with a capitol S!
In the meantime, go familiarize yourself with these dinos here:
Ok. So. The top picture is taken from my facebook page a couple of months ago. You'll see there is some man trying to tell me and my contacts what language is acceptable.
Hmmmm...I thought this was my own personal facebook? I thought there was a little something called freedom of speech? The other day, I checked one of my email addresses and saw "Pete" still hadn't let it go. This is an old email accounts that I don't even use or post for people to contact me anymore. Somehow "Pete" found it. If you can't read it, this is what he said:
"Would you cuss that way on Facebook if your own children were listening to it? You won't be talking to our grandchildren that way, on Facebook or anywhere else. I think you should grow up. You've got a lot of talent but you're wasting it. Think about it when you're a mother (I don't know if you are one yet). It's not just Facebook. You have a responsibility in a public domain and you should have a conscience considering children and families. Other than that this destruction of our connection wouldn't have been necessary. Good luck. God bless you in your future endeavors. Pete from Facebook.
No really. You can't make this shit up. Where to start?
Let's see, "Pete"...first of all, how do you "listen" on Facebook? Who's grandchildren are you fucking talking about? Hate to break it to you but if you're concerned about what they see on my page you should probably ban them from the internet all together!
I love that you think I should "grow up", because you know me oh so very well. Here's the thing, the beauty of creating an online personality is that you only show what you want.
You don't know me. You know characters.
My private life is something only my real life close friends and family get to be a part of. Hate to burst that fucking bubble.
So I've got a lot of talent and I'm wasting it. Gee Petey, last time I checked I was pretty fucking busy 24/7 working as a professional actress, finishing up various theatre gis, booking two more, one of which is a world premiere, just getting back into town from a high profile runway event where I was one of six models, churning out videos like a mother fucker, coreographing two routines for the troupe I dance with, scheduling upcoming photo shoots, juggling film projects, traveling and wishing I had time to work on the other 100 projects swirling around in my head...shall I go on or do you get it honey? Am I wasting time because I'm not a movie star? By all means, go ahead and wave your magic wand.
No dear, not a mother. I'm fucking young. Because I live where I live and all you think of is the stereotype of girls getting married right out of high school and churning out babies does NOT mean I'm one of them. Open your mind, I'm too busy with a fucking career.
Another thing that might blow your fucking mind...ready for this?
I do not have a responsibility because I'm in a public domain in any way shape or form.
I can do whatever the fuck I want here and if you don't like it you don't need to be a part of it. Real easy, isn't it? Did I set out to be a squeaky clean role model?FUCK NO. Never did I claim it, never would I want that. If I'm so offensive to you, your family and your children JUST DON'T WATCH. The minute I start to censor myself and worry what people think is the minute this is all for nothing. I don't roll that way. Never have, never will. You can't please everyone. What a waste to live your life that way.
I'm sorry I used foul language, dad. I mean Pete. Wait! Oh my god! I already have a father. In fact he's one of my Facebook contacts so you can just shut the fuck up.
I love that you think I'm such a badass. Little ole me, what with all the real creepers, porn, god knows what on the internet that you certainly don't want your grandkids seeing...I assume.
Yup. I'm soooooo bad.
Destruction of our connection?! WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU???? I blocked YOU, remember? And then you still emailed me. I don't know who you are, or anything about you. And guess what? Vice versa. God, Pete, get a fucking life. You're probably far too old to have your panties in a bunch and give such a shit.
Your message irks me. You know why? Because it shows you think women should pop out babies and set your idea of an "expample" by saying and doing the "right thing".
You don't have to agree with me and I don't have to agree with you...but I would NEVER think it was my place to tell someone I didn't know that they should behave the way I wanted them to.
IT'S CREEPY! YOU ARE CREEPY!
And just for the record? I swore in this blog approximately 14 times, just for you.
I had high expectations and was enjoying it...but by the end I had no idea how much it would affect me. It was so important for me. I felt like I needed to see it. It answered questions, gave me closure and reminded me how lucky I am.
First of all, as far as my relationship experiences have gone, it was total role reversal. I was the Joseph Gordon Levitt character. I knew just what he felt like every step of the way. To be with someone so unattainable and so head over heels.
At the end of the movie, Zooey's characater (the quirky girl who doesn't want a commitment), ends up married to someone else. He says to her "how did the girl who didn't want a boyfriend end up someone's wife"? That hit me hard. That was my situation with a boy years ago in another state. I could not imagine him ever telling a girl that he loved her, let alone becoming a husband. And guess what he was right after we broke up?
I wondered for years how it happened. What was it that made him settle down? What made him propose? What made him choose her? What was it about me? I have never been able to wrap my head around it. I moved on, sure. But not having an answer always bothered me. I am the kind of person who needs to know why.
She tells him that she just knew.
She knew with this guy what she was unsure of with the other.
Oh. My. God. That's it. That's all and that's it.
You just meet the one that changes your life. The one that you can't imagine life without and there is nothing else to figure out. That simple. My years of wondering and analyzing were simplified and healed in that moment.
She goes on to talk about fate...which I absolutely believe in. She talks about the day she meets the man that will become her husband in a deli, "what if I had gone to the movies that day? What if I had come in ten minutes later?"
Again. Oh. My. God.
Here I am, sitting next to the love of my life. I squeeze his hand. I hold back my tears.
What if I hadn't come home from nyc to do the play where I met him? What if I hadn't called him back? What if?
The thing is...it is as it's meant to be. For me, for him. For the boy in my past.
I was reminded of the time when my heart was breaking and I thought I was going to die. I never thought I'd be able to get up off the couch and breathe again. I only wish I could have whispered to that girl that she would be okay. She would grow up to meet The One and be where she was supposed to be.
I wished this movie would have come out years ago! But again, for whatever reason, it was meant for me to see it yesterday. It had a hopeful ending. It was heartbreakingly beautiful, clever, funny and hopeful. It was perfect. I watched three teenage girls walk in to see it and wonder what they'll take away from it. What will anyone at any age and stage of relationship take away from it?
The amount of passion and love and attraction you can have for another human is pretty remarkable. It's always different depending on the chemistry of two people. As you grow and you experience more and can heal and look back on it...even the painful parts become beautiful, don't they?