Well f**k

(Above pic from Jared Golds Caspian Runway Event Dec. 07 want me to explain the red hair? I'd just played a role where I was blonde.  I was slowly back on the way to black for another role...and I thought this would be a fun way to stand out in the fashion show.  Yup.  I'm the kind of girl who will dye her hair for a one night event.  My hair has been every cut/color known to man but my agency likes me best when I stay consistently black, as they often send me out on the latina auditions.  So there's all you've ever wanted to know about my hair history.  Believe it or not, people often ask me about it!)

You know what really sucks my balls? 

Last weekend I (god, even as I write this I want to kick myself in the ass) was supposed to do a modeling gig.  A two night Ed Hardy fashion show. In Park City.  For Sundance. In a huge ass mansion.  With lots of people I should have met for networking purposes.  

And I -gulp- turned it down! Ahhhh! What the mother f**K?! It came at the worst time.  I had a couple other contracts and auditions at the same time and I didn't think I could make it to the friday one on time and the deal was you had to be available both nights.  

I hate when everything hits at once! I hate hate hate missing out on opportunities.  And today I read all about it and saw some photos in some local press and I felt totally bummed, man.  But I guess many options are better than no options.  Still.  I've said it before and I've said it again.  I need more hours in the day! *Cries*  

I'm off to a dinner celebration for a couple birthdays in the family.  I'll go drown my sorrows in a bit of wine.

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xo Deena Marie